Organically Choosing Life
In my quiet time, I looked in a concordance and found the word choose (Hebrew) means: to take a close look at something to determine my preference in the matter. It holds the connotation of testing or examining. The root origin is related to tilling the ground.The idea is that, through examination, I am able to distinguish the best or most useful option. I believe making a choice is more organic than commonly portrayed. Organically speaking, I grow into the choices that reflect who I am even as who I am comes into focus. An ugly duckling of a choice becomes a swan in time. True choosing...
Read MoreIrresistable Choice
I release the notion that I have to fix myself or produce change. I believed I had to be willing to make a change…but now I believe that Change is willing to make me. Change appears as incontestable desire. I’m not consciously choosing each change; each change is more consciously choosing me. When allowed to occur in its time, both choice and change are irresistible; each surfacing as the obvious next step. Heart is transcending mind, revealing God as the God of pure gift. In the meantime, I am content with who and how I am TODAY. Impatience gets me to waste energy...
Read MoreAn Old Pattern
Have you ever tried to “read people” to find the meaning behind their actions? This is a pattern that could be carried over from childhood. Children try on new friendships like shoes, looking for the ones that fit. We’ve all lost childhood friendships to what seemed like upgrades. Kids (not usually in touch with their motives) don’t often say why they’re “moving on,” they just treat the former friend differently. As this happens, we can feel the shift in their affection and if we misinterpreted the cue to “bug off,” their indifference can...
Read MoreHis Choice
As I leave self-scrutiny behind, the real “me” is free to emerge. My view into the heart of God is His choice for me; it’s the revelation of who He’s chosen to be in me. From this vantage point I see the scope of all He intends to be through me. I’m confident enough now to let me be – no matter how simplistic the view. It’s easy to adopt the expression of God in another, but I will ache until I am who He’s chosen to be in me. It is this that gives my heart its proper rhythm. Life is asking me to live while pointing out that the only...
Read MoreChoosing Occurs in Union
The paradox of choice continues to challenge me. The solid changes that occurred last year seem to have nothing to do with the quality of our choices. Michael and I did not struggle to effect the changes – and when we get something that we don’t have to work for it is generally considered a gift. Perhaps my difficulty in reconciling the subject of choice has less to do with the act of choosing and more to do with where the choice is made from. I’ve seen choice as something I do from the soul or the reasoning mind. I choose after deliberating pros and cons, weighing...
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