I need to say it, write it, spill my guts…my brother, Mark, died 3 days ago…on the wings of Mom’s passing less than 6 months ago…a lifelong friend 10 months prior…and Dad just 1 year before that. The last 3 years have measurable loss. I let go of a position I’d held for 18 years with the ministry that nourished my spiritual roots. Top that off with a marriage that was on life-support for 13 years and you may see why Michael and I felt ready to pull the plug.
About a year ago, the miraculous took place. Hearts that were no longer beating, lungs no longer breathing, brains no longer thinking, and emotions no longer feeling, suddenly and inexplicably revived. Mike and I received each other with full abandon. We joke together saying, “together for 20, married for 13, but awake and in love for 1 year now…and counting!”
I’m astounded when I think of all the pieces that aligned to create this life occurrence between us. God’s great, big universe rallied together to surround us with the elements necessary to fashion our transformation. In the face of all that has happened, I am so grateful to have my husband. So much joy in the midst of so much heartache…life really is a paradox.
Susan, I liked your last statement, life really is all good. Pondering Life can bring up all kinds of things in a person. Laughter,Crying,wanting, needing, Loving,etc. I like you honest facts about how you think. I wish all Gods best for you and Mike, I know the both of you are really enjoying the Jounery!!!!! Tim
Tim, glad you found your way to my site…small world, huh?! Thanks for your positive comment and for considering the goodness of God with me. If you and Fran are ever in New Mexico you should give us a call. Mi casa es su casa!